| great weekend |
[28 Sep 2003|05:15pm] |
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Okay, wow... i havent been much for these journal things in a while... oh well.
Yesterday i went to a jam festival, got to play guitar and make noise infront of a bunch of drunk people, thats always fun. These damn kids my age were drinking and smoking like you wouldnt beleive... 2 girls were completely shitfaced by 3:00 in the afternoon.
best part; katie came along. Ever spent 12+ hours with someone and still miss them when they leave? Goddamn i love this girl. And after all that i've been through, i've only put more and more scrutiny on these emotions, and with her it still comes out clean.
well, i'm back home now... schoolwork to do and people to kill.
el fin.
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| no parents = good |
[01 Sep 2003|12:11pm] |
Parents left for the weekend. They left cash and a car, so things have been good. Spent sat. w/katie, snuck her over to my house, but if anyone asks we saw The Medallion... bwahahaha..
yesterday i hung out with austin, we went to guitar center and i played around alot till he got bored then we went to the mall to blow cash at gillians. A waste of money if youd ask me, but he does what he wants to. It was good to see him... but i know im gonna kill him once he moves in. Annoying as fuck this one is. Very much his fathers son.
oh well.
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| New Journal |
[24 Aug 2003|06:50pm] |
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Well, katie got a journal, so thats cool i guess. Been pretty busy, as usual... therefore no new updates, but I'm boring anyways, so yeah... blar on your face.
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| big update |
[20 Aug 2003|08:28pm] |
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Lets see... alot has happened since i updated this... so here goes.
Back in school, senior year, woo indeed. Classes are pretty easy, and I've got theatre AND orchestra this year, so i am officially the fine arts whore. I got lunch with katie, so thats a huge plus... i pretty much go the rest of the day without talking to anyone else, except in th/orch class.
After school i get to crash at katies... once again, huge bonus in my day. Its like i go the entire school day just waiting to be out of there and in her arms... i think we both fell asleep today curled up on the couch... and i couldnt think of anywhere else I'd rather be. Life is surprisingly good... its kinda creepy.
learning alot of new music with the orchestra group... probably not going to do much afterschool theatre this year... if any. I'm really going to miss it... but at the end of the day i consider myself a musician, not an actor, so there ya go.
Big Brother is on tv in here... i think i want to shoot myself in the face. I hate reality TV.
Shadows fall message board has been a bit hectic lately. Server has been acting really buggy, and a couple of people have been arguing... but i will silence them when i need to.
I got called 'pretentious' by some asshole college guy on the razoroye board. I went to sleep slightly pissed about that, but i got over it. I dont know what the hell crawled up his ass and died, but he should be glad i'm over here and not... wherever the fuck he is... or something like that.
*sigh* katies gone... i'm here... maybe i'll just go sleep or something.
Later.
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| Hmmm |
[08 Aug 2003|11:51pm] |
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I'm happy.... I really am, i just worry too much.
I just got my first taste of helplessness. Its not that i dont trust her, its just that with everything that has happened to me before... i kind of half expect to get thrown aside or something. And to think... i was worried about not being attached enough. I'm an idiot.
I've spent most of my time worried that my calloused heart would somehow slip and i would hurt her... i dont think i could ever hurt her. Ever. And here I am... with that lost feeling. I know theres no reason to feel like this, but i cant help it.
I am vulnerable... and i havent felt like this in a long, long time.
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| Today |
[07 Aug 2003|05:45pm] |
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First off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATIE.
Well... lets see, got woke up by maidpeople, sat outside for 2 hours on phone. Talked to katie for a while... its good that shes up early cuz that couldve sucked. Anyways... they took thier time and i was stuck outside for a while.
Katie left to go run errands, cuz seein as how she spent the first few hours of her bday at the DPS, it was her chance to drive her mom around... Yeah.
She left, i called amanda and talked to her for a while. Its good to have someone to talk to when nobody else is awake at 9 in the morning. I also realized that the only difference between people that its easy to talk to and people where converstaion is slow at times is history. I havent known katie for very long at all, so sometimes i'll just be sittin here like, 'dur...'. Over time you accumulate plenty of meaningless bullshit to chatter about. No biggie.
I finished 1984 a little while ago. An unsurprising but not any less depressing ending for a book. Joy. Maybe i'll rant about that to people in english class message board.
Message boards... yeah. Shadows Fall board is running well. Its been a little buggy, freaking on some posts, but nothing major. Everyone is happy with the changes, so i'm just gonna keep going with it. Yeah.
i beleive that is all for now... stepmom just got home so i no longer have the freedom to do whatever the hell i want.
porkchops for dinner, katies phone died and her computer got killed. Fucking joy.
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| Fear the ticking clock |
[04 Aug 2003|04:22pm] |
FUCK!!! IM RUNNING OUT OF SUMMER!!!
now that ive got that out of my system, i can do something useful with my time... .like nothing.
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| Katie |
[01 Aug 2003|04:47pm] |
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Yes, another post... wow, 2 in one day, i must be getting bored.
Oddly enough, thats not the reasoning behind this.
After getting to know her better, i have decided to commit to the relationship and everything. Its nice to actually have someone here. Here. Not a couple hundred miles away, but actually here.
She's really great... i wouldnt have even wasted my time talking to her at all if she wasnt.
Umm... blah blah, yeah, i like her. Woo.
If only i could see the look on her face when she eventually reads this, bwahahaha!!!
And it's Opeth Appreciation Week, so go get you some good music!!!
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| So much has happened... |
[01 Aug 2003|04:40pm] |
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I havent really felt like updating... but im bored and i guess i should anyways.
Katie, if you should so happen to stumble across this, please dont take offense to the fact that i hadnt said anything in here... i havent even looked at this damn thing in a week or so.
anyways, yes... Katie, lol. I'll just leave it with the mention of a single female name, and you guys can assume the rest. You'll probably assume right. Subtlety rules.
And i am now the admin for the Shadows Fall message board. Awesome band, and its an honor to be able to fix up the forum for them.
www.shadowsfall.com/forum
GO THERE NOW!!!
that is all.
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| I am such a music whore |
[21 Jul 2003|08:39pm] |
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Metallica - Am I Evil? |
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Okay, steph and katie's bday party is coming up soon, so i decided to make them both a present.
I recorded myself playing happy birthday and stuck it at the top of both cd's
anyways, here goes..
Stephs Bday CD:
Me, Happy Birthday
Linkin Park, Somewhere I belong
Nickelback, Never Again
Nirvana, About a Girl (unplugged)
3 Doors Down, When I'm Gone
Alice in Chains, Down in a Hole, (unplugged)
Stone Sour, Bother
Goo Goo Dolls, Iris
Hoobastank, Running Away
Flogging Molly, Drunk Lullabies
Wierd Al, A Complicated Song
Megadeth, Tornado of souls
Metallica, To Live is To Die
Pantera, This Love
Children of Bodom, Bed of Razors
Stereomud, Pain
Tenacious D, Tribute
Danny Elfman, Trouble
Katies Bday CD:
Me, Happy Birthday
Edwin Starr, War (Whats it good for)
The Eagles, Hotel California
Kansas, Dust in the Wind
Foo Fighters, Everlong
Eric Clapton, Tears in Heaven
Flogging Molly, Black Friday Rule
Ozzy Osbourne, Crazy Train
Megadeth, Hangar 18
Metallica, Am I Evil? (Diamondhead Cover)
Pantera, Cemetery Gates
Children of Bodom, Downfall
Stereomud, Steppin Away
Evanescence, Haunted
Opeth, Closure
Shadows Fall, Casting Shade
Danny Elfman, Weepy Donuts
whew, i'm tired of typing...
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[20 Jul 2003|09:46pm] |
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Lets see, got up really tired and sore from the hour long game of twister yesterday and swore i wouldnt go out again today. Just take it easy... Yeah right.
Turns out steph called last night, so i called her back and, as usual, katie was over at her house, so i talked to them for a little bit. Katie called me back when she got home. Ended up driving over to her place a little later... we sat around, i beat her at some random board game i had never seen before, watched about half of a knights tale... then i went out with her and her family to the movies. Saw the league of extraordinart gentlemen. It was.. . meh, it was okay. Nothing great, just another random action movie.
Left from there
came home
now im here
woo.
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| yesterday |
[20 Jul 2003|10:37am] |
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Well, lets see, some more typical morning after babble.
Went to fishy's going away again party yesterday... besically consisted of everyone except brandi and i playing pokemon battles half the day. We agreed that pokemon sucked and went in the back room and watched the beginning of The Patriot. Cool movie, and alot bloodier since it was the actual video and not the tv version that i've seen. Eventually people started filtering around the house and, get this, I was right!
I had told brandi that nobody cared we were back there alienated from the group, she agreed, big surprise there. Anyways, i told her that the first people to come back there to find us would either be, Amanda just to check up and keep control or whatever, or kaitlin cuz she's cool.
First visitor, Amanda taking head counts.
"1...2... okay. *poofs*"
Second visitor... Kaitlin slips in and starts diggin in her bag for something... Damn I'm good.
Anyways, eventually amanda's mom got back with dinner stuff and we ate, and decided to play a game while letting the food settle for the 'big plans' later. So we got about 2 rounds into a game of risk before we started throwing armies at eachother. I shouldve brought the CD version of that game. I love risk, but its just too much for a big group of people to handle w/out screwing up. Oh well.
After that... we decided to play twister. Again. Just like last year. Woo.
We were gonna set up in the living room, but her parents were too close, so we went to set up in a small room in the back of the house. Upshaw and i both thought the room was really tiny, no way in hell theyd ever make a twister mat fit in there, so we went and hid back in the living room so as to avoid the violent explosions when amanda realized she couldnt fit it. Not good. But, they pretty much cleared out the room and just barely fit in the mat... so everyone that wasnt playing had to stand to the side, lol. I didnt really care cuz i was in the whole time and ended up winning. Yay for soreness.... ahh.. But brandi did put up a good fight. She was in the whole time last year. Yeah.
Um... after that i had to run, so i hugged kaitlin goodbye, told her i would see her again and ran off after a few minor slowdowns with goodbyes at the door.
Drove home, fought highway construction in the middle of the night.... got home, called amanda's mom cuz she wanted me to when i got home just to make sure i wasnt dead. She's really cool. I want some time just to be able to talk to her about alot of the stuff over the last year. Oh well, it was late and i could tell she was content in knowing i wasnt dead. So i slept.
Todays plans = ________
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| Mix CD - 'Pissed Off' |
[15 Jul 2003|04:46pm] |
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Mix CD's rule.
Pissed Off:
1) Stone Sour - Get Inside
2) Nickelback - Never Again
3) Slipknot - My Plague
4) Slipknot - Heretic Anthem
5) Godsmack - Awake
6) Metallica - Battery
7) Megadeth- Holy Wars (The Punishment Due)
8) Black Label Society - Doomsday Jesus
9) Children of Bodom - Bed of Razors
10) Shadows Fall - Destroyer of Senses
11) No Warning - Wound Up
12) Pantera - Yesterday Dont Mean Shit
13) Sevendust - Praise
14) Puddle of Mudd - Control
15) Stereomud - Pain
16) System of a Down - Aerials
17) Stone Sour - Bother
Gotta bring it back down at the end.
If I'm still pissed after this CD is done, something is seriously wrong and you should just call the cops now.
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| wow... too much free time |
[15 Jul 2003|12:27am] |
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x: name = Kyle
:x: piercings = No thanks. I'll pass on the unnecesary holes in my body
:x: tattoos = Nah, too permanent. It would have to be something that meant alot to me.
:x: height = 5 10
:x: shoe size = 10
:x: hair color = dark blonde
:x: length = bout 6 inches or so...
:x: siblings = blood brother, 1, austin-17. Stepsisters from stepmother, 2, Kate and Jessi, Stepsister from stepdad, 1, Sam.
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = Umm... yeah, i dont remember the last time i rented a movie
:x: movie you bought = ... same thing
:x: song you listened to = Track 4 from Stone Sour CD, i'd have to look it up cuz i dont remember the name... great music to work out to, and it was on the 4th track when i went to take a shower
:x: song that was stuck in your head = Elton John - Tiny Dancer. I watched Almost Famous. haha
:x: cd you bought = Metallica - St. Anger. I'd want my 10 bucks back if it didnt come with the DVD
:x: cd you listened to = Children of Bodom - Hatebreeder
:x: person you've called = Brandi
:x: person that's called you = Katie
:x: tv show you've watched = For Love or Money. I fucking hate reality TV, but i say down to eat dinner and thats what my dumbass family was watching. I only saw 15 minutes... i eat fast when i have to
:x: person you were thinking of = thats impossible to answer. If you were me, you'd understand
DO...
:x: you have a bf or gf = ... is this some sort of joke? I am the tragically lonely.
:x: you have a crush on someone = No i do not.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = Not really. I fought to stay here with my friends
:x: you think about suicide = I did at one point, but i realized that it is the worst possible thing a person could ever do.
:x: you believe in online dating = Thats like saying 'do you beleive in grass?'. Of course i do. It exists.
:x: others find you attractive = I doubt it.
:x: you want more piercings = By more do you mean 'some'?, cuz i still dont have any
:x: you drink = No
:x: you do drugs = No
:x: you smoke = No, all three are just fucking stupid. I didnt even have to go through the addict-binge part of my life like some people do to see that. Go me.
:x: you like cleaning = Not really, but i feel better after I'm done
:x: you like roller coasters = I'm pretty indifferent. I'll ride em, its not like they scare me or anything, its just not my favorite thing in the world to be doing
:x: you write in cursive or print = print, but i can bust out my psychotic scribble caps at will. ( http://members.aol.com/ice86man/SF.html )
:x: you carry a donor card = No... but i probably would if i had thought about getting one
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = I've done it. It sucks. Probably one of the most painful experiences, longing to be with someone. Going to sleep clutching a pillow, knowing that it won't be who you love when you open your eyes. Wanting to give anything and everything just to look into thier eyes. It hurts.
:x: using someone = against.
:x: killing people = I know some people are a danger to society, but i dont know if i'd have the heart to pull the trigger. Only if someone i loved was in danger.
:x: teenage smoking = personally i think its ansolutely stupid, but its not like i can stop them, so why worry myself? Check your second hand smoke at the door and you might leave intact.
:x: premarital sex = I dont feel that sex is that important. Its not a set thing, i have to be married first, but i wouldnt be surprised at all if thats how it works out.
:x: driving drunk = Oh yes, i love to see innocent people slaughtered because someone had a bit too much to drink. Fuck off.
:x: gay/lesbian relationship= They're just people. Why should it be any different? You should watch Chasing Amy
:x: soap operas = I used to watch wrestling. Thats just soap operas where guys beat the hell out of eachother every 5 minutes.
FAVORITE...
:x: food = chinese, but that rare steak thing sounds really really really good. *drools* Mmmm.. red meat...
:x: song = I am a musician. My favorite song is whatever i am listening to at the moment. Unless it sucks, then its my least favorite.
:x: thing to do = just chill with some really good friends. I'm prone to 'doing nothing', but i think just hanging out on someones couch and talking is doing alot more than staring blankly at a movie screen
:x: thing to talk about = Life
:x: sports = I dont really like to watch unless im playing. And since i am no longer a part of the mindless football army, i dont watch much sports
:x: drinks = water, OJ, milk, tea
:x: clothes = I am rarely seen an entire day w/o a hat, backwards of course. During winter i cling to my blue zipup hoodie sweatshirt jacket thing for life
:x: movies = Almost Famous is prolly my favorite. But i could think of a million really really good ones
:x: band/singer = Metallica, Megadeth, Shadows Fall, Children of Bodom, Nirvana, Linkin Park, Slipknot, Stone Sour, and countless more... dont get me started.
:x: holiday = Meh...
:x: new nerdy saying = Why you stupid little crap-for-crap!!! -Strongbad
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a guy = Well, change that 'guy' to 'girl' And i will definitely say yes. Too much.
:x: ever lied to someone = Once when i was with my grandparents, the idea of evolution came up. I was just starting to come to terms with what i beleived, anyways. She looked at me and said "you dont really think we came from monkeys, do you?" I looked at her and saw someone that had lived with thier beliefs for so long that anything different was wrong and would just completely upset her. I said no.
:x: ever been in a fist fight = very very few.
:x: ever been arrested = nope
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = twice
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 1
:x: of boys I have kissed? = 0 *notes the lack of snippy answer*
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = 0
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 3... maybe 4
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = I dont have enemies. But benji comes so close it scares me.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = umm... school paper for theatre crap.. once or twice in local paper. Whatever
:x: of scars on my body? = I heal very very fast.
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = 0
FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = ummm... errr... when was the last time they came out with something good?
:x: scent = i have many connections with many things by scent. Some are good, some are bad. I dont wish to name any.
:x: word = hmm.. dont think i have one. But it is funny how upset people get when you rearange cufk. just 4 letters. say 'fuck' and people flip.
:x: nickname = Vince dubbed me "Kettlehead' Dont know why. Nobody does. It stuck and i dont mind it anymore. I go by Pot for short.
:x: guy name = no
:x: girl name = no
:x: eye color = the ones that change
:x: flower = no
:x: piercing = ... scream?
:x: actress = Umm... errr... im never good at this.
:x: actor = johnny depp is always cool
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = Uh... no.
:x: funny = I can be if i feel like it. I can also just sit there silently in the background plotting your demise. But thats normally funny, too.
:x: hot = depends on whether or not i am outside in the middle of the day. Houston. blah. *sweats*
:x: friendly = It really depends
:x: amusing = meh, not really.
:x: ugly = at times i do
:x: loveable = I wish i was. The 2 times i thought i was it turns out i wasnt. Fuckit.
:x: pessimistic = yeah. It just sucks cuz I'm right all the time.
:x: optimistic = only when i need to be for someone else
:x: caring = I am loyal to the death.
:x: sweet = yeah, but nobody would ever know it.
:x: dorky = hahaha, i was at one point in time crowned king of the dorks
:x: Spell your first name back wards = elyk
:x: The story behind your user name = ThePensivePoet- Pretty self explanatory. When I'm sad or upset or thinking about something, i write. Pensive is what i am most of the time.
:x: Are you straight? = yes
:x: Where do you live? = Houston
:x: 4 words that sum you up = Touch My Friends? Die.
DESCRIBE YOUR -
:x: Wallet = Black w/red skull stiched on to it. Chain attached. The only thing from Hot Topic that i have, and thats only cuz my ex gf's little brother had a million he never used so they threw one away, or i mean, gave it to me.
:x: Hairbrush = black
:x: Toothbrush = um... green grippys on white
:x: Jewelry worn daily = i dont even wear a watch
:x: Pillow cover = blue i think
:x: Blanket = i have a really cool wolf blanket i love. Its the best thing my grandma ever got me. Great to walk around in during the winter.
:x: Coffee cup = coffee sucks.
:x: Sunglasses = meh, i used to have a pair of wireframe sunglasses i liked, but some little kid stole em.
:x: Shoes = old nike's. the $30 kind.
:x: Handbag = nope
:x: Favorite top = any random t-shirt that fits.
:x: CD in stereo right now = Stone Sour album
:x: What you are wearing now = some black shorts to sleep in and a towel around my neck
:x: Hair = right now, in a ponytail cuz i just got out of the shower. Normally tucked in a hat or hanging around the general vicinity of my head.
:x: Make up = you mean like, homework i didnt do on time?
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
:x: In my mouth = water. :p
:x: In my head = so many things it scares me
:x: Wishing = i was a better person
:x: After this = prolly sleep
:x: Talking to = nobody, i am forgotten.
:x: Eating = had beef stew and bread for dinner
:x: Fetishes = i love winter. bwahaha! Oh and if you give me a back massage i will be your best friend for a week.
:x: If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? = i couldnt
:x: Person you wish you could see right now = sadly enough, no one
:x: Is next to you = stuff.
:x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month = going back to school, i just wish i've done my summer work already
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of? = Harm coming to someone i love.
:x: Do you like candles = not especially
:x: Do you like hot wax = its fun to play with. I'm not playing with the fire from the candle, i'm making claws on my finger tips from hardening wax. XD!
:x: Do you like incense = Its always cool to have around
:x: Do you like the taste of blood = Hmm... i think i kinda do. Irony. Not ironic, just Iron-y. Metallic. yeah.
:x: Do you believe in love = its what keeps me alive
:x: Do you believe in soul mates = no... but i think it's always possible to find someone that completes you so much it feels like you were meant for eachother
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight = No. That is shallow. "Wow, that chick looks intelligent" Whatever.
:x: Do you believe in forgiveness = It is my nature to forgive and be stabbed in the back again.
:x: Do you believe in God = No.
:x: What do you want done with your body when you die = I dont give a shit. Chop me up and give my parts away to whoever needs em.
:x: Who is your worst enemy? = nope.
:x: If you could have any animal for a pet = wolf or a dragon. Or both, bwahaha! But as far as domestic animals, cats kick the shit out of dogs.
:x: What is the latest you've ever stayed up = 2 days
:x: Ever been to Belgium? = Mmm... waffles
:x: Can you eat with chopsticks = sure. Give me a pocketknife and i'll sharpen them and stab you in the eye, too.
:x: What's your favorite coin? ... quarters are school currency
:x: What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to? = dallas, nyc, seatle, indianapolis, tokyo.
:x: What are some of your favorite pig out foods? = chinese
:x: whats something that you wish people would understand? = All i've ever wanted is to be loved. Truly and honestly loved. i've been lied to. "I Love you" is not just a ritual to say at night. It MEANS something.
:x: What's something you wish you could understand better? = anything i dont know.
:x: Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? = i miss my friends. always.
:x: Something you want to make happen for tomorrow? = As long as i dont die, i'm happy.
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Yay. Hurricane heading for houston. I'm gonna die.
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Wow... that feels good.
I looked out my window and it was raining.
I was struck by the urge to be in the rain.
So i went outside and stood in the rain.
It was great.
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Danny Elfman - Beetlejuice Main Theme |
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Well... the last two days have been really good.
Got to see kaitlin for the first time in probably about 9 months since she moved away. We all met at the mall and just kinda roamed around. She wore sandals and her feet were killing her by the time we left, so i ended up playing Tribal Pack Horse and carrying her around on my back for a while. She's still tiny, lol. Dumb vince (the bf), just kinda followed and spent the whole time commenting on her ass cuz i guess her shorts were stretched or something cuz she was on my back. Whatever, lol.
Then yesterday, i did just hang out at home all day, but i got a call from dani, talked to her while she ran down random pedestrians and basically just did all the things that i probably wouldnt either cuz i know better or i dont feel like it. Thats cool. She actually talked to me about some of the stuff that was going on that has her so upset... i was really glad that she actually opened up to me, even if only for a short moment. Then it went back to random rapings and sadomasochism.
Talked to amanda about katie and everything. We got alot of things out that we hadnt really said up front before, and it was really good. Honesty is a wonderful thing. We're just friends, and we know that. No big deal. But both our parents prolly think we're going out or something, lol. i LOVE keeping them in the dark... parents are stupid anyways, and i stopped giving a shit what they thought a long time ago.
Missed katie's phone call yesterday and she never did call back. That kinda sucks. I felt, or i guess i still feel, bad about that. I went out to see a movie and she called 15 minutes before we got back. Shit.
Well, its a new day, and i'm gonna spend the whole fucking thing just sitting here at home. Joy.
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Oh, and as for the grad pictures yesterday, i just barely made it on time after dropping katie off, (i took her to get some lunch)... and i actually managed to get through the whole thing w/out stabbing anyone in the face, so i guess thats good.
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Hmmm... redid my message board's layout. Feel the cool blue-ness, lol.
Made a dumb little blue oakpaw banner to go in there, i guess that turned out okay. It fits in the color scheme at least. Whatever.
Ummm... just got up, so the day hasnt beat me up enough to give me something to bitch about, lol.
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